In the last few days chaos was increasing in my mind. From day to day I
felt like something is going to explode. I felt very uncomfortable,
couldn't find my usual calm mood. The reason was unknown to me. I guess it
was like it always were, but of course I wasn't sure. What often bothers me
is that I have so many things to do. Some of them I must to and some of
them I like to. My big problem is not give them priority or see what is
really necessary and what is not, my problem is with action. I never get to
the action. I usually start with a small thing whcih I like to get into
better mood. What happened is that I stay with this too long, much too
long, only because I like it. As a result is that I have no time left for
things which has to be done. This increase a pressure and I become very
nervous.
Friday I had nice chat with my friend
Daniel Staver about these things. He
suggest to take one "have to" and one "like to" task per day. Tasks rather
bigger not small ones. I did that today and I am just finishing my second
"have to" task, even this one is half of the kind "like to". They both
done. What is nice that I did a lot of work and even I spend whole Sunday
working and not really on the things I love to do it still feels good.
Reason: I didn't kill whole Sunday with some small thing. I use the time to
to useful work.
Hope it will be going this way on, it will help me get out of this
stagnation...
